alternate title: WHY: I should not be so chatty when insecure.
recently I met a friend’s new roommate. I invited him to come to something and then thought he might feel obligated so I immediately flipped around and started explaining myself. I tried to recover from something that wasn’t even a failure. My friend related what happened after the event was over and he had returned home.
C [roommate] : your friend’s interesting.
E: how so?
C: well, I just met her, and I could tell she was into me.
E: dude. She’s not into you.
E: she’s after some scrawny half bearded kid at seminary. she’s not into you.
C: oh. okay then.
and all this, simply because I didn’t want someone to feel obligated to hang out with me if they didn’t want to. I have got to learn that I can be friendly. But not overly chatty and feel a need to recover from something that doesn’t need recovering from…. because apparently, I give off the impression that I’m romantically interested in someone when I talk to much.
I don’t think I want to meet too many more male roommates in the future.